The first week of Januar. Went. Not well, but it went. My sinusitis came back. Copenhagen is freesing. I feel like hibernating until February. I’ve written about spiritual practise today, but frankly, I feel blocked and doubtful right now.
So what is it about? Let me do a little reading – The little Cross again; The Situation crossed by the Challenge:
The situation gives me The Empress: Here we have the Alchemical Vessel personified by the Mother Goddess herself.
Again from The Alchemical Tarot Study Group:
Alchemically, the Empress represents the alchemical vessel, which nurtures the creation of the philosopher’s stone. She continues the process of dissolution of the prima materia, begun by the High Priestess.
Tarot wisdom: The Empress signifies the potential to bring forth great abundance, the bounties of life, a spiritual flowering. She is grounded in the earth, and therefore in the material world, which helps us keep our center as we probe the spiritual planes. However, we cannot take this abundance for granted. The alchemical womb must be watched and tended, lest it abort, and we be forced to start anew.
Again, I think this has do with grounding and nurturing. I guess I simply tend to forget this, while (still) feeling self pity about January.
I guess I will meditate on this card for the next week, and try to nurture the aspects of everyday life that has to do with the Goddess. And nurture my children, husband, and myself as mother and wife, and woman of course.
I’m afraid I has been withdrawing into myself and that is not a way to tend to this alchemical vessel, I think.
Crossed by Two of Swords as the challenge:
I’m being involved in thought processes, that are too airy, too dualistic, too intellectual. If I let it be, I might find a compromise of wisdom (the owl) in a entirely different place, than where I look for it now. Maybe it is a conflict between emotion on one side (the sword with the red handle) and rationality on the other (the sword with the blue handle). Or maybe it is this dichotomy itself that is the problem.
So here I read the Challenge card as an obstacle, something that prevents me from going to the source of the Goddess, so to speak. I’m simply troubled with thoughts and rationalizations. Maybe the owl is telling me to hover over this and that is in doing that I find wisdom.
By the Empress, and pointing back to my last reading, by Children. In this particular reading I see the Empress’ child, Eros, symbolising both children, childish things and Love.
And the Two swords also points back to the Three swords from last week; That thoughts and mental processes can sometimes be a problem in it self. I can actually forget what is most important in the midst of them.
But then I’m gently reminded.
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